I went back to Temasek today with Marcus. I miss TMS SOOO MUCH! Even the bus trip there was so nostalgic, all the squeezing and squishing and all. All the familiar landscapes.. I alighted the bus, and saw people playing in the basketball court, where so many PE lessons were often held.. The parade square... the field..

I stepped into the school and the first familiar people I saw were Wenda and Chu Yuan. Gosh, I miss my juniors so much! They've grown so tall.. They were like smiling at me and their greeting was "You cut your hair." -_-!! And I went like "Yeah, and you guys grew taller." They smirked and said "But your height didn't change." Then I saw other juniors, PZ, JT and Sean. And they are ALL SO TALL! That is so unfriggin' fair. Even Sean has grown taller! Some growth spurt. -.- When I first met them, they were the same height as me, if not slightly shorter. But now, they're like towering over me. It must be the whole long pants illusion.

Then I went to sit in their CO practice. Saw Lao Zheng, and they were playing Fen Yong. Haha, same as what I'm playing in MJ. My precious gaohu is still with Wenda, it'd better not be oily. Had lots of fun and laughter talking to my juniors. And during debrief, Sean was like pressing down on my shoe and I was trying to lift it up. Then he suddenly realised how small my feet were, and was telling PZ and they started laughing and all. Mean little kids... Haha. But SHEESH, I MISS MY JUNIORS SO MUCH!

Okay, enough about that. Have I ever felt so lost and down in my entire life? Probably, but it is never pleasant to have a repeat of that kind of history. After I left TMS, I didn't even have the mood to go home. I just wanted to wander around.. walk a bit.. ponder about stuff.. I went back home.. laid on my bed, stared at the ceiling, my mind empty. Then I went to play the piano. Tinkered around with tunes from Goong, Feng and Sadness & Sorrow. I know not what to do anymore...